I knew I was gay growing up and I had no one to understand or talk to about it. Those in religion that I was pressured to open up to, used that information against me and/or said I would grow out of it. "Fake it until you make it!" I was called fag and bullied. I had zero confidence so I just did what I could, Which was avoid anywhere these bullies might be. I ate lunch alone usually, I joined clubs and tried to ignore my self-resentment around others (those whom I also knew were avoiding the bullies.) I felt less then a guy around guys and knowing I was gay made me feel isolated. Being gay made me despise myself. As I grew older and became an adult. I did everything my religion told me to. I dotted my I's, I crossed my T's but no matter what I did, in the end I was lost, fearful and ashamed. A failure in the only community and life I knew. I had to walk away from my family and society alone and journey on my own. Music has been embedded in my my life. It was my outlet where a songwriter/a singer/a producer expressed themselves, their emotions indirectly but directly. I write songs to express my emotions, my self discovery of loving me for who I am and who I can be. Those who follow me and like my songs are those that understand me and where I have been. Listeners have a house they can come into, a world where myself and others understand them. A safe place to disconnect and find confidence among other listeners. Love yourself and be proud to be you. The X is for everyone.